Ksenia: They also need to be told!
Narine: Yes. Somehow the population needs to be more humanized...
I didn't understand all this either. I am an active, radical person. An anesthesiologist without fear or reproach. I left the specialty (palliative care) several times. I never did therapy because I can't wait. Did it — here and now!
To those doctors who come into this specialty at my age or a little younger, I say: "You can extend your professional longevity by becoming a palliative care doctor. Why? Because by this age, a person gains knowledge, understanding, life experience, humanity, compassion, communication experience, maturity, and patience." I wanted to have all these qualities. This is necessary to listen, empathize, and endure...
When I was finishing the Palliative Care Leadership Development Initiative Cohort II, this "incubator of leaders" in palliative care, there were only 43 people from around the world. We were taught to promote the topic of palliative care. We were coached by those who worked with American senators, who wrote books on leadership. And all these people who were there and are now at the top of global palliative care were my mentors.
Ksenia: Was it like an MBA for leaders?
Narine: Yes. At this training, as a completion, we all told our stories about what brought us to this topic. My story was like this. I had no idea I could end up here. I wanted to deal with pain as an anesthesiologist; it was interesting to me. Through "pain," they dragged me here. And several times when everything was going very tough, I left. I have very little patience. It was hard for me to explain all this to ordinary people, non-doctors.
At that time, I had a patient; I went to his home. He had lung cancer and metastases in his head. He mumbled; there was almost no contact. Somehow, he explained to me — it hurts, it doesn't hurt. He was very close to the end; I was providing him with hospice care.
His wife called me all the time and said, "Doctor, you know he is in pain."
In palliative care, there are two paths of death: one is heavy — with delirium, groaning, and so on. You don't understand "pain or not pain" if you are not a specialist. You need to be a specialist to assess the condition. And the second path is easy; a person simply fades away. My Vartkez was going the hard way. I told his wife, "He has no pain — I understood this indirectly — he is just leaving heavily."
One day, when she was having a hard time and he was having a hard time, she called me about 20 times. The last time she called was at one in the morning. I looked at the phone at night and just clenched my teeth — "to take or not to take?" But you need to answer normally. She says, "He is bad, doctor, he is in pain, maybe something..." I tell her, "My dear, it's not pain; he is leaving so heavily with you. Do this, do that..."
At five o'clock, another call. I was already furious. But of course, I picked up the phone. Now I'm saying this, and again, I have a lump in my throat... She says on the phone: "Doctor, my Vartkez has died. I am so grateful to you. He left so peacefully after what you said." And that's it. And we started crying together. And I understood...
You see, when you are an anesthesiologist, you return a patient back to life; you don't have a feeling that you are doing something... "unclear." And here... A person still dies (Narine cries). Sorry, I usually hold back very well... I realized that this is just my mission. The mission is to share my knowledge, my experience, and treat patients. And so I stayed in this speciality.
My last name is Movsesyan, which means Moses. Moses. It's not for nothing either. I always thought, "Lord, why did you bring me here?"
Ksenia: And how lucky Armenia is, and we are lucky! This is both a big task you carry and joy because you know exactly who you are.
Narine: Well, you know, I am calm about myself, there is no star quality in me. I got over it a long time ago. I was a young head of the department, very successful. There was such a moment — a woman head of the department!
I am always dissatisfied with myself. But I know who I am. That simple woman told me then... Sometimes angels manifest like this.
I believe that women will save the world. They are more flexible; they are not focused on themselves... Whether it's a department in a hospital or a country, we all perceive it as our home, we start to care about it. And not "to love oneself in art"!
Women will save the world; I believe in it.